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forest fire, bumpy jupe, and Burgess, Auden, and Graham Greene

 

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This is my daughter in law’s home in California.The sky is that color due to fire retardant planes are putting out to attempt to douse a big forest fire nearby.

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The red pointer is pointing to their street.

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This is current location of fires near them. Northern California is making the national news but there are plenty of fires happening in the state.

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There is smoke everywhere. They have not been evacuated but have had acquaintances evacuated.

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This is the Trader Joe’s we shop at when we visit.  Cynthia told Eileen last night that they were all safe and not to worry.

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Eileen drove me to the doctor this morning for my appointment. My doctor and her nurse were appalled by my appearance. My face is flushed red from inflamed rosacea. The doctor quickly decided that I was correct in assuming I had a reaction to my new BP drug. She had me given a steroid shot and prescribed a course of prednisone. It’s afternoon now and I’m still pretty miserable. The steroid and prednisone may be kicking in, but it’s hard to tell.

In the meantime, my doctor has upped the dose to my other BP medicine. I think she will eventually prescribe a new med but for the time being didn’t want to start a new drug. I’m supposed to email her in two weeks with two weeks worth of my daily Blood Pressure readings.

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I was reading Anthony Burgess’s highly entertaining interview with Graham Greene this morning.

Burgess quoted Auden’s poem to Greene in which Auden coins the word “grahamgreeneish.”

Burgess quotes the last four lines below, but I think it makes more sense with eight.

Then, worst of all, the anxious thought,
Each time my plane begins to sink
And the No Smoking sign comes on:
What will there be to drink?


Is this a milieu where I must
How grahamgreeneish!  How infra dig!
Snatch from the bottle in my bag 
An analeptic swig?

infra dig is short for the Latin Phrase infra dignitatem: beneath (one’s) dignity
analeptic means tending to restore a person’s health or strength, a restorative

The poem is “On The Circuit.” John Fuller refers to this poem as an “Audenesque genre, the aeroplane poem.” Fuller also says that the poem ends with a “Drydenesque formula.” He attributes this observation to John Whitehead.

Auden’s poem ends like this. This is actually the next eight lines after the above quote.

Another morning comes: I see,
Dwindling below me on the plane,
The roofs of one more audience
I shall not see again.

God bless the lot of them, although
I don’t remember which was which:
God bless the U.S.A., so large,
So friendly, and so rich.

Dryden’s poem,  “Epilogue Spoken at Oxford by Mrs. Marshall,”  ends like this:

Converse so chaste, and so strict virtue shown,
As might Apollo with the Muses own.
Till our return, we must despair to find
Judges so just, so knowing, and so kind.

Later in their conversation, Burgess and Greene are discussing how under rated Arthur Conan Dolye is as a writer:

Greene: “You don’t find Conan Doyle dealt with at length in the literary histories. Yet he was a great writer. He created several great characters—”

Burgess: “Eliot admired him but didn’t think him worthy of a critical essay — not like Wilkie Collins. And yet Eliot lifted a whole chunk of The Mugrave Ritual—”

Greene: “Where?”

Burgess: In Murder in the Cathedral. You remember — ‘Whose was is?’ – ‘His who is gone.’ — ‘Who shall have it?’ __ ‘He who will come.’ ‘What shall be the month?’ And so on. In the Sherlock Holmes story we have  ‘Whose was is?’ – ‘His who is gone.’ — ‘Who shall have it?’ __ ‘He who will come.’ ‘What was the month?’ Almost identical.”

But Do Blondes Prefer Gentlemen? p. 22-3

Sure enough, a quick online check reveals the lifted section.

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Eliot:

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If you google: “t s eliot arthur conan doyle” you find that this is not the only instance of this kind of thing.

still bumpy

 

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The doctor’s office did not call as they promised they would yesterday. This morning I got up late.  I’m still covered with attractive, little red itchy bumps. I called the doctor again. This time they gave me an appointment tomorrow morning. In the meantime, I have taken two Benadryl tablets. I’m trying not to scratch my zillion hives. I skipped my blood pressure medicine again today. BP is holding steady at around 133/96. This is not too bad for me.

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I was planning on getting more serious about losing weight after vacation. Now I get to go weigh in at the doctor tomorrow morning and I have gained weight. That’s never fun, though as Eileen points out Dr. Fuentes doesn’t really yell at her patient. But she won’t be happy.

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I finished the Zs in my book order upstairs yesterday. Now I’m moving the Js and Ks to the emptied shelves in the hallway. These became empty because I’m shuffling books around and doing a bit of culling. So now the plan is to have A-I in east bedroom, J-K in the hall on one shelf, L -P in the loom room, P-T in the master bedroom, then back out in the hall for T-Z.

 

I actually didn’t pick up an instrument yesterday. That’s how distracting these hives can be. I did read, however.

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While visiting Mark and Leigh, Mark showed me “The Death of Stalin.” Eileen and I watched it together this week. This is a funny movie worth seeing. Those words don’t come from me that often.

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Opens locally tomorrow. I want to see this one.

NYTimes: Oh, the Humanities!

W. H. Auden in the news.

NYTimes: Langston Hughes Just Got a Year Older

Did you  know that Hughes ashes are interred” under the floor of the lobby of the New York Public Library’s Schomburg Center for Research in Black Culture, beneath a mosaic cosmogram that includes lines from his classic poem ‘The Negro Speaks of Rivers.'”

Here’s a cool picture of Amiri Baraka and Maya Angelou dancing on it.

NYTimes: The Internet Trolls Have Won. Sorry, There’s Not Much You Can Do.

Bookmarked to read.

 

miserable jupe

 

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I seem to be having a reaction to my new blood pressure drug, Losartan Potassium HTC. After I fell a while back, I developed a nasty rash on my ankle. This is worse. My rosacea is acting up. I have contacted my doctor and asked for a referral to a dermatologist.

In the meantime I have noticed more and more small places on my body that are itching. Last night these seem to be all over my body. I had a bad night, got up, took a shower and waited until 8 AM to call my doctor after checking the side affects on my new drug.

It’s hard to say if that’s exactly what’s going on with me, but it looks likely.

The operator I spoke to at my doctor’s clinic said she would send my information over to Dr. Fuentes office. They had no openings today, but might be able to work me in. I’m waiting on a call.

The shower helped a little bit since I have a bunch Cetaphyl for my rosacia and ankle rash.

Sheesh.

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My guy (El-Sayed) lost in the primaries yesterday.  Often the people I vote for don’t win. Politics has always depressed me, but I don’t think I have intentionally skipped a chance to vote. And of course, politics as practiced by Trump and company has upset and worried me more than anything in my life.

I accidentally backed into a police car parked in front of my house on the way to vote yesterday. If you connect with me on Facebook you probably already know this. There was little damage and no ticket. The three policemen were very polite.

I continued working on putting my books in order yesterday. I now have K-U done. I am dusting the books and shelves as I go.

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I also pulled out Anthony Burgess’s But Do Blondes Prefer Gentlemen? Homage to QWERT YUIOP and other writings. I’m pretty sure I have read all of these essays before, but since there is new book of his essays out, I thought I would pull out this book and do some reading in it before getting the new collection.

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I miss Burgess’s writing. He is literate and doesn’t seem to take himself too seriously, always entertaining and fun to read.  It seems that many writers that interest me are either literate but serious or witty but not that literate.

There’s an essay in this book on Burgess’s visit to Barcelona called Homage to Barcelona. I’m sure when I read this years ago it was before we visited Barcelona. It was fun to read Burgess’s take. Again, literate but extremely witty.

NYTimes: The Gift of Menopause

I like this writer’s take on menopause. Not everyone is as lucky as she was.

The Lasting Trauma of Alex Jones’s Lies – The Atlantic

It’s True: Trump Is Lying More, and He’s Doing It on Purpose | The New Yorker

It continues to mystify me how idiots like Jones and Trump convince people they have the truth.

NYTimes: Rick Gates Testifies He Committed Crimes With Paul Manafort

This trial is happening this week. I’m following it a bit.

goofing off: reading, practicing, studying,

 

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I had a lot of hits here yesterday. I never quite know what that means since I only glance at the google analytics embed on the WordPress dashboard for my blog and leave it at that/

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Last night in one of my dreams I couldn’t find my organ shoes. I was scheduled to perform an organ piece and also another piece (guitar?) in a round robin of performances. I wasn’t particularly stressed in the dream. I mention it because I haven’t put on my organ shoes since June. I left them at church. If they are gone I do have a back up pair.

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This time off from my job has been very helpful. I can feel a better perspective clicking into place.  My song, “Chain of Command,” keeps going through my head ever since I tuned up the old martin and ran through it a few times.

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Thank goodness, I wrote songs down. Even then I have to remember how I played them since the notes on the guitar are so redundant. (One can usually play notes in several ways on the neck) I am planning to make some notes to further clarify “Chain of Command.”

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I just listened to an old mp3 of this song. It’s not near as bad as I remember my recordings being.I think I made and mixed this recording on an old digital recorder I used to own. I eventually gave it to a rock band that lived next to us for a while with the caveat that they not come and ask me questions about how to use it.

I feel like this vacation has jerked me back into a sense of myself. I like “Chain of command” and realize that I don’t really have much commercial potential but actually I never have had that much appeal, just intense enjoyment of doing music.

This persists.

So I need to work a lot less harder at my gig, while still maintaining my high standards when possible ( this happens a lot under the wise counsel of Rev Jen).

And I need to put more energy into what I love: reading, studying, practicing. I’m not sure about composing. I have had a couple glimmers of something I might to like to write while on vacation, but so far have managed to resist them. When I compose I become even more obsessed and tend to immerse myself in the process. That might be more fun when I am working instead of trying to goof off.

Before Eileen got back from Whitehall yesterday, I returned to organizing my books. This is very satisfying. I think I can get a lot done before this vacation is over. During vacation I have found time to alphabetize by author K-S. I think I can finished T-V this week. The next step would be to look harder at A-J which is not as clearly organized as what I have been doing.

So one last week to read, practice, and study. Life is good.

It’s True: Trump Is Lying More, and He’s Doing It on Purpose | The New Yorker

To read.

The Lasting Trauma of Alex Jones’s Lies – The Atlantic

To read.

NYTimes: The Gift of Menopause

I relate to this article.

Ai Wei Wei’s Beijing Studio Destroyed By Chinese Authorities : NPR

I admire this artist and his work.

driving back to Holland in the heat

 

We took our Dodge to the shop to fix the air conditioner. Judging from the ride over from Holland to Unadilla, it doesn’t seem to be fixed.  I am returning to Holland today. It’s already warm here in Unadilla. The ride back without an air conditioner will not be comfortable.

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I was planning to leave after lunch, but now I’m thinking the earlier I leave the more comfortable the ride will be.

I have already loaded the car. Mark came down and  got the paper but went back up. I haven’t seen Leigh yet.

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We had an amazing meal last night at The Common Grill in Chelsea last night. The restaurant is a tad pricey but the food was excellent. Apparently, the family of Jeff Daniels was instrumental in helping this restaurant get started. The goal seems to have been to have a local top notch eatery in Chelsea.

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It’s kind of cool how Daniels has influenced this little Michigan town. He started a very cool little theater here, The Purple Rose.

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My blood pressure has only been high on one day since returning from California where it was low most of the time. As my vacation draws to a close, I realize that I’m going to have to cut back on drinking in order to lose some weight. If I can pull that off, my blood pressure should be okay as well. I treadmilled on Saturday. Mark has a treamill he lets me use.

I’m not sure when Eileen will come home. Her mom has a doctor’s appointment today and hasn’t been doing that well physically. I think the plan is for her Mom to move to Nancy’s today as well. I could see this tying up Eileen all day and even tomorrow or the next day as well.

Two New Books Go in Search of the Real Lolita | Vanity Fair

I had no idea that Lolita had any basis in reality. This is unfortunate.

America has gone mad.

NYTimes: Losing My Son to Reading

I admire Viet Thanh Nguyen, the author of this article.

learning from time off

 

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One thing that vacation has taught me is that I work too hard at my job. I hope I can remember and apply this when I return to work. Before vacation, Eileen pointed out that since the installation of the Pasi my organ practice times had been gradually increasing. This was fun and rewarding, but not necessary. I am sure I can maintain my own high standards of church music without driving myself quite so hard.

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I do think this would be wise. Looking back over the last year or so I can see that my vision of a recital series has not taken hold. No one from the parish has stepped forward to assist with publicity, programming, or long range funding considerations. I think it might be best to wind this down after June 2019. I am very proud of the series of recitals I have organized. But aside from a few faithful souls who have attended, not many seem to see the worth of it the way I do.

So maybe the theme for next year will be for me to take it a bit easier especially on myself.

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Vacation has also taught me how rewarding study and practice for its own sake is to me. Often in the past ten years or so, I have been puzzled by the withdrawal of colleagues and friends. It’s time for me to let this go and enjoy my time with my books and music.

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I finished reading Dyson’s Tears We Cannot Stop. I learned quite a bit from this book. Near the end of the book, he suggests other books to read. Here’s the list. The asterisked books are ones I am sure I have read. I also own many of the ones I have not read.

Many Thousands Gone by Ira Berlin
Closer to Freedom by Stephanie Camp
Out of the House of Bondage by Thavolia Glymph
The Known World by Edward P. Jones
Middle Passage by Charles Johnson
* Beloved by Toni Morrison
Playing in the Dark by Toni Morrison
A Nation Under Our Feet by Steven Hahn
The Counterrevolution of Slavery by Manisha Sinha
Soul by Soul by Walter Johnson
Empire of Cotton by Sven Beckert
* The Half Has Never Been Told by Edward E. Baptist
The Reaper’s Garden by Vincent Brown
This Republic of Suffering by Drew Gilpin Faust
Battle Cry for Freedom by James McPherson
Black Reconstruction in America by W.E.B Du Bois
The Warmth of Other Suns by Isabel Wilkerson
Origins of the Civil Rights Movement by Aldon Morris
Voices of Freedom by Henry Hampton and Steve Fayer
Eyes on the Prize Documentary
Taylor Branch’s trilogy on Martin Luther King, Jr.
Parting the Waters
Pillar of Fire
At Canaan’s Edge
Bearing the Cross by David Garrow
Carry Me Home by Diane McWhorter
Devil in the Grove by Gilbert King
Ella Baker and the Black Freedom Movement by Barbara Ransby
This Little Light of Mine by Fannie Lou Hamer
In Struggle by Clayborne Carson
Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde
The Truth That Never Hurts by Barbara Smith
Ain’t I a Woman by bell hooks
Black Macho and the Myth of the Superwoman by Michele Wallace
Critical Race Theory by Kimberlé Crenshaw
Say Her Name by Andrea Ritchie
Black Feminist Thought by Patricia Hill Collins
The Souls of Black Folks by W.E.B Du Bois
Malcolm X by Manning Marable
Waiting ‘Til the Midnight Hour by Peniel Joseph
Stokely by Peniel Joseph
Black against Empire by Joshua Bloom and Waldo Martin, Jr.
Race Rebels by Robin Kelley
*Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison
political essay of Leroi Jones/Amiri Baraka
June Jordan
Zora Neale Hurston and her novel Their Eyes Were Watching God
The Color Purple by Alice Walker (and her essays)
*Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglas
Up from Slavery by Booker T. Washington
*The Autobiography of Malcolm X
I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou
Dreams from My Father by Barack Obama

Opinion | The Children at the Trump Rallies – The New York Times

This is a sad little article.

short blog

 

Short blog today. I am relaxing at Mark and Leigh’s in Unadilla. I was able to sit on their porch this morning and do my morning Greek and reading. I have had time on Leigh’s wonderful piano. Leigh brought in fresh yellow cherry tomatoes and green beans from her garden. I cooked up some beans and made a salad with them, the tomatoes, fresh zucchini and other stuff. Excellent! You can’t beat fresh stuff.

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I looked up my primary ballot for next Tuesday. It’s going to be easy. Most Democrats are unopposed. I know that Ottawa county went for Trump and always goes Republican, but I am voting Democratic. My choice for governor will be El-Sayed. He seems a cut above your average politician.

We are living in an insane time in the USA. The whole concept of “Fake news” makes no sense to me. If it’s fake, it’s not news. There are too many people who seem to either take Trump’s warped interpretation of reality as real or are willing to have him as leader so they can have conservative Justices on the Supreme Court, get rid of abortion, and/or other portions of the Trump madness.

The Republicans will, no doubt, win my county. But I can’t bring myself to vote in their primary as I have done on occasion before.

Spike Lee Takes on the Klan – The New York Times

Lee has taken over Peele’s project. This looks like another movie I will want to see.

Autoplay Videos Are Not Going Away. Here’s How to Fight Them. – The New York Times

Some fun comments on this article…. instructions on how to block ads and much criticism of the New York Times itself for videos and moving gifs on their apps. I totally agree. Movement on my screen that I have not asked for makes me want to put down the device and go practice or read a real book.

quick weekend getaway

 

Eileen went to care for her Mom in Whitehall. I jumped in the car and drove to Unadilla to visit my brother and his wife. I wanted to get out of town for the weekend. I only have two more weekends off counting this one.

I brought an interesting selection of music with me. I have had Domenico Scarlatti on the mind, in my ears, and under my fingers recently. I brought the first volume of Kirkpatrick’s 60 Sonatas by him. I also brought some Couperin and a facsimile edition of suites by Dandreiu. The latter present unique challenges because Dandreiu uses a bunch of different clefs. I can read this music, just not too quickly.

I’m reassessing how Couperin and other French Classical composers sit on the piano since discovering a slew of recordings of them on Spotify and YouTube on the piano. It doesn’t work too bad, actually.

Since Leigh has a working guitar I didn’t bother bringing my guitar, just my music and foot stool.

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While at the library yesterday I picked up a copy of Chuck Palahniuk’s new novel, Adjustment Day. He has a great website, including lists of books he recommends. According to his website you pronounce his name “paula nick.” Good to know.

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Mark had this book laying on the piano. I think he wanted me to see it. At any rate, it’s already in my Amazon cart for future purchase. I have read most if not all of Burgess’s work. He is one of my many heroes.

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Well, enough for now. Off to continue my vacation relaxing. Life is good (though I do miss my lovely wife).

Eileen’s Mom and thinking about brain functions

 

My suitcase was in the dining room when I got up this morning.

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It must have arrived last night after I went to bed. Eileen either met the delivery person at the door or discovered it on back porch where she asked them to put it.

Eileen’s Mom is failing.

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Eileen was planning to go up and help with her this weekend anyway. I am planning to spend time at my brother’s house in Chelsea while she is away. Dorothy was diagnosed with congestive heart failure yesterday. She is resting comfortable at home but parts of her body are swollen. She is doing a lot of sleeping. They are planning to  move her to Nancy’s house this weekend. She goes for more blood tests tomorrow and a doctor visit on Saturday.

Our internet is out here at the Holland address.

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I’m using my phone as a hot spot in order to do the blog. According to Xfinity, there are outages in our area and they are working on it.

I am continuing to read in Siegel (the Mind book). Citing a clinical case that he described in another book (first chapter of Mindsight), the midline areas of the top of the brain and the prefrontal cortex enable 9 functions to arise.

1. body regulation (balancing the body’s brakes and accelerator)
2. attuned communication with self and other (focusing attention on internal mental life)
3. emotional balance (living with a rich inner life of feelings)
4. response flexibility (being able to pause before responding)
5. soothing fear (calming fear reactions)
6. insight (connecting past, present, and future with self-understanding)
7. empathy (mapping the inner mental life of another)
8. morality (thinking and behaving as part of a larger whole)
9. intuition (awareness of the wisdom of the input from the body)

In a different order, I found this online.

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In addition, when he has lectured on these, he has had people come up and tell him that they see these functions as corresponding to the spiritual teachings of their heritage (Inuit, Lokota, Polynesian, Christian, Jewish, Hindu, Islamic, Buddhist). Physical evidence Siegel’s ideas?

Anyway, food for thought for Jupe.

N.R.A. Joins Questioning of Florida Sheriff in ‘Stand Your Ground’ Case – The New York Times

Very odd bedfellows.

 

glad to be home

 

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We made it home last night. But my suitcase didn’t. Supposedly they will deliver it when it arrives. Eileen thinks that will be afternoon at the soonest.

My trip to California left me feeling sad. Sad to be parted from those I love. Sad that they are going through so much. Eileen and i were sitting in a restaurant at the Ontario Airport and this sadness weirdly and suddenly lifted. I had been resisting rehearsing thoughts that reinforced it, but this cessation felt physical.

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I read in Siegel’s Mind: A Journey to the Heart of Being Human and Dyson’s Tears We Cannot Stop: A Sermon for White America. These two books help pass the plane rides.

Siegel continues to intrigue me. His book is a window into current brain and cognition science which asks very important questions about the mind. It helps me to think of the mind as existing between us as well as inside us. Our experiences of each other re-hard wire our individual brains.

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This is interesting to factor in when I consider my relationships with others over the years.  I am sometimes mystified about the changes in people I have know a long time. Where are the people they used to be? I can think of several persons in my life whose present personality has morphed entirely from when I knew them when we were younger.

When I knew these people, the synergy of our relationships could be understood as the mind between.  I have had old acquaintance give me the impression that by emphasizing the arts and beauty I am stuck somewhere in the immature past. Of course it doesn’t seem that way to me. It seems something is missing in my old acquaintance. Another old acquaintance seems to have plunged deeply into her own pathology abandoning the things that she and I both cared about when we were younger: poetry, ideas, beauty. Could the previous experience be evidence of some sort of interpersonal connection that is gone now and no longer affects her?

Siegel also emphasizes the notion of “integration.” This helps me as well since I strive to get more of this in my own life.

Dyson’s book is a sermon to white people. It is very charming that he sometimes uses a language that is reminiscent of St. Paul. Speaking of “White fragilitu” as a “will to innocence that serves to bury the violence it sits on top of” and after listing off a litany of realities of racial violence in our time, he writes: “Beloved, to be white is to know that you have at your hand, or by extension, through institutionalized means, the power to take black life with impunity. It’s the power of life and death that gives whiteness its force, its imperative. White life is worth more than black life.

Dyson also relates many stories of his own and others’ confrontation with racial hatred. The book is keeping my attention and I am learning to think deeper about some things in our country like the continuing insidious acts of hate against African Americans.

Bob Woodward’s New Book Will Detail ‘Harrowing Life’ Inside Trump White House – The New York Times

Woodward’s books are often a bit gossipy and dumbed down, but I might read this one

Chinese Parents Protest Bad Vaccines for Hundreds of Thousands – The New York Times

And in the US we have the dang Vaxxers who don’t believe in science.

After the Play, a Supreme Encore From Ruth Bader Ginsburg – The New York Times

RBG is a breath of sanity in a time of insane government in the USA.

Minneapolis Police Officers Won’t Be Charged in Fatal Shooting – The New York Times

This reminds me of a discussion I had with the reactionary pastor of First Pres Detroit when I worked there. He was talking about the killings at Kent State U years ago (even then) of protesting students. He said they were irresponsible. I said that one would hope that the government would be the voice of sanity in that kind of situation not reactivity. Unfortunately, it wasn’t true at Kent State, nor when I talked to the pastor in the 80s, nor is it true now.

U.K. Foreign Secretary Jeremy Hunt Calls His Chinese Wife Japanese in Beijing –

I don’t know if you saw this in headline somewhere. I did and was glad to read a report about it since it is such a weird thing. It turns out that the Chinese government official he was meeting with had been speaking Japanese and that when Hunt screwed it up in the same breath he said it was a mistake and a bad one. No story.

Opinion | Inside the World of Racist Science Fiction – The New York Times

Interesting back story to some USA madness including understanding Trump’s dog whistles to extremists and Bannon’s connection to this stupid hateful literature.

60 Books Bill Gates Recommends. How Many Have You Read? – Blinkist Magazine

Bookmarked to look at later. I love book lists.

happy and sad

 

We head back to Michigan today. Our plane leaves in the afternoon and we are scheduled to arrive in Michigan near midnight local time there.

It has been a bittersweet time out here. I love seeing my family. But these are hard times for them due to my son’s alcohol addiction. So I am both happy and sad. But as usual I am very glad to have had time with them, especially my three grand children who continue to mature and show amazing resilience.

Yesterday I sat down and read a couple books my California granddaughters are reading.

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Invisible Emmie by Terri Libenson is almost a graphic novel.

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It’s the story of a middle schooler who is introverted and loves to draw. Amply and charmingly illustrated, this story is interspersed with a cartoon the main character, Emmie, is making.

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The cleverness comes in observing how she uses her real life in the story she is making up. Catherine actually purchased the sequel to this book on Sunday, but had it out to reread in preparation for reading the second book.

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Adultolescence by Gabbie Hanna is also illustrated. Hanna is apparently a YouTube personality. Catherine seem to know this right away, but I’m not sure whether Savannah who chose this book for purchase did.

The poems are not terribly well written, but I can see how the point of view would be interesting to Savannah. There are some witty moments and there are some poignant ones.  Here’s a poem, I liked. I also liked the accompanying illustration but was unable to find it online.

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Here’s an example of her drawing.

bffThis is Gabbie with her BFF, loneliness.

I hope I’m not driving my grand daughters a wee bit crazy, reading the books they are reading. They seem okay with it. I try to keep the comments to a minimum.

That’s it for today. I think I’m braced for travel.

The Black Panthers still in prison: after 46 years, will they ever be set free?

I have been reading Tears We Cannot Stop: A Sermon for White America by Michael Eric Dyson. It is a source of continuing amazement and frustration to me how the huge fact of slavery and the repression of its descendants is an open secret in the USA.

What the Provincetown AIDS Memorial Leaves Out | The New Yorker

It seems to leave out the important story of the struggle of AIDS. This is a good thing to remember when thinking about the past. Important points and nuances are sometimes ignored or omitted.

 

california visit almost over

 

Our annual California visit is drawing to a close. On Saturday, we met my son, David, for lunch and then drove him to the home where he is now staying.

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It was good to visit with him as he attempts to put his life back together after addiction.

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Yesterday, we took the grandkids for our ritual bookstore visit. We have done this for years. We give them a small allowance ($60 yesterday) to buy books for themselves. I sometimes choose an additional book for each person. Yesterday I supplemented Savannah’s books (which were mystery and crime) with a copy of T. S. Eliot’s Old Possum’s Book of Practical Cats.

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I was surprised to see her perusing the poetry section, so I was inspired to add this book to her collection.

For Catherine, I dug up a graphic novel version of L’Engle’s Wrinkle in Time.

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She has read the novel but seemed interested in the graphic novel version. She chose YA novels that I didn’t recognize. For Nicholas, I picked out a collection of Kafka short stories.

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I’m not sure if it’s the version pictured above. it was a newer translation. I did this because he has expressed some interest in Philip Glass’s piano piece set called Metamorphosis and said he hadn’t read the short story.

I embed this recording because I suspect this is the one that he listens to. His choices for himself included a CD by Gary Clark Jr.  I found this video by him on YouTube.

I was surprised to see that Clark covering this old Beatles tune. Nicholas also chose included House of Leaves by in his choices.

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The clerk checking us out approved of this and said it was like The Shining on steriods. I have looked at this book before but haven’t read it. It’s now on my radar since my Grandson is reading it.

In the evening we took Savanah to meet her Mom at their Sunday night Al Anon meeting. The dang GPS went a little haywire and I had to rely on my wits to get us back and forth but we made it.

Opinion is valued more than fact in this digital era | Roy Greenslade | Media | The Guardian

Though I’m on vacation, I am following the news. It seems as though our usually shaky attempt at democracy in the USA is in deep trouble. Too many people are believing the GOP administration’s distortions and tweets from the Oval Office over their own sense of logica and truth. This is bad.

Expert: Trump’s ‘fake news’ media jab at VFW distorts reality | The Kansas City Star

The expert is Jay Rosen. He is worth listening to. Back in April, I read this article and bookmarked it. Helpful but frightening.

New York Times Publisher and Trump Clash Over President’s Threats Against Journalism – The New York Times

Insane.

Worms frozen in permafrost for up to 42,000 years come back to life

Oldest living creatures on earth. Females.

Jay-Z on ‘Rest in Power: The Trayvon Martin Story’ and Activism – The New York Times

upcoming series that would be interesting to see

How Cloudflare Uses Lava Lamps to Guard Against Hackers | WIRED

They provide random info for encrypting.

 

having in fun in California

 

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I had fun yesterday. My grandson Nicholas and I managed to get some time together. We went out to buy a printer. Then we ended up having lunch together. Nicholas is 18 years old and it was great fun to have him to myself for a bit for some chat.

My granddaughters,  Savannah and Catherine, were off with Cynthia and Eileen shopping having an additional ear piercing.

Then last night we all traipsed over to a nearby outdoor performance of “The Beauty and the Beast” which was startling well done.

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Cynthia made sure we arrived early enough to get places on the benches.

 

The audience gradually grew until sunset when there had to be at least 5K people in it.

The performance was polished and well  miked. There was a full pit orchestra. Watching over 50 people in the chorus/dancers made me realize how effective spectacle can be when well done.

This is a free performance underwritten by local businesses and sponsors.

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Today I have arranged to meet my son, David. Eileen and I will take him out for a  meal and catch up.

Zadie Smith’s Right to Be Wrong | The New Republic

This is a confused but interesting take on Smith’s most recent short story in the New Yorker. I read Smith’s story in my own subscription copy of The New Yorker, linked it here, and listened to her read it online. It is a perplexing piece, but I don’t think this critic quite gets it right.

greek in california

 

 

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I’m sitting by my daughter-in-law’s outdoor pool early in the morning in California. At this time of day it is quite pleasant, despite the high temps that happen later in the day.

I was wondering if Kindle had improved the Kindle versions of my Greek texts. I only brought the exercise book with me, having photocopied a few pages of the other two texts so that I could keep up with my studies.

Since Kindle books are stored in the cloud and not on any one machine, I tried to download copies of the texts I didn’t bring to see if they had made them usable. When I attempted to do so, it told me I was over the limit of Kindle devices for these texts and that I could either delete a device or re-purchase them.

I went on Amazon and deleted a few devices. This is confusing because despite having “nicknamed” each device, it’s not really clear which one is which. So of course I managed to delete the software on my current tablet. I discovered this when I returned to it.

This meant re-downloading anything in my Kindle library that I wanted to use. I did this including the Greek texts. The previous problem with them was that the parts of the text in Greek refused to respond to font enlargement and are quite small. You have probably guessed the outcome. They are still unusable.

I remember a few months ago browsing on the user reviews of these books and reading the comments. One person pointed out that since the books were useless, that it would make sense for Amazon to issue a refund. Unfortunately, I have had mine so long I don’t think that would work for me.

On the other hand, the interwebs were kind enough to allow me to download and use a copy of the second volume of Bach’s Well Tempered Clavier here. That’s nice.

My BP is lower since coming out here. When we visit I don’t have my evening martini, wine, and snacks. Vacationing is such a weird time that it’s hard to know how your body is doing with things like weight loss and blood pressure.

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It doesn’t help that I purchased a package of Babka for our evening meal last night.

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I had never had it. I think the particular loaf of Babka we had was a bit dry. It was decadently improved with ice cream.

I’m probably not losing weight.

 

safe and sound in California

 

We made it to California yesterday. The flight was fine. We had a long lay over in Dallas/Fort Worth and found a pretty good restaurant right there in the huge airport.

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What I liked about it was that they had the caloric content of the food on the menu.

Then Eileen and I found a spot to sit and play our ritual Boggle game.

My three grandchildren greeted us in the incredible heat when we arrived at their home.  It’s so good to see these people in person. Cynthia, my daughter-in-law, keeps me up to speed with them, but there’s nothing like seeing them in person.

Before long, we settled down into a Scrabble game. I won.

The time change is hard on me. I didn’t try to stay up last night and was in my bed by 5 PM local time. Tonight I have to do better since the group wants to go out tomorrow night.

In the meantime, we have to make first ritual visit to Trader Joe’s to stock up on food for the group.

Cynthia worked late last night. Even Eileen was in bed by the time she got home. This morning Cynthia and I had a nice long chat in the cool morning breeze by her pool.

Now she’s off to another day of work. She’s working full time now.  We’ll have the day with the grand kids. I’m looking forward to it.

You Say You Want a Revolution? The Anti-Capitalist Film “Sorry to Bother You” Shows the Way

Although I was initially disappointed with the movie, “Sorry to Bother You,” I keep thinking about it. That’s usually a good sign. This is not a great article particularly. It’s more about being anti-capitalist than thinking about the plot. It’s the plot I keep thinking about.

NYTimes: Whatever Happened to Moral Rigor?

I have been bookmarking articles. This one talks about James Baldwin who is on my mind a lot.

NYTimes: How Elite Schools Stay So White

I think I can guess what’s in this article but will still read it.

NYTimes: The Comedy-Destroying, Soul-Affirming Art of Hannah Gadsby

I like Hannah Gadsby.

NYTimes: Annoyed by Restaurant Playlists, a Master Musician Made His Own

Musicians seem to be extra aware of the aural environment. I know I am. I bookmarked this to check the dude’s playlist out. It looks good.

NYTimes: When We Eat, or Don’t Eat, May Be Critical for Health

Big breakfast, smaller lunch, light supper. Don’t eat at night. Tall order for Jupe but it makes sense.

Music from Strangers Below — Joshua Guthman

I ended up on this web page while thinking and reading about how the singing of Psalm chants in the English parishes resembled Primitive Baptist hymn singing.  Old Hymns Lined and Led by Elder Walter Evans. Sovereign Grace Records was footnoted by Temperley in his book on English Parish church music. Scroll down on this link and you can here a cut from it. I also recommend scrolling down to the bottom to listen to Louisiana Primitive Baptist Church video. Very cool.

 

getting ready to go

This morning I wanted to listen to Calefax on Spotify. They have done some very cool recordings of fugues that I was in the mood to hear. But they were all gone. I had an empty playlist. Fuck it. I listened to Sting’s The Last Ship instead which I quite like.

Later I went to YouTube and made a Calefax playlist there. There weren’t any of the recordings I was looking for, but here are some cool ones.

Eileen and I are getting reading to jump in a plane tomorrow morning. We are on our way to California to visit the fam out there for a week. We plan to travel light. This is one thing we have learned. Take as little as possible. This is expedited by devices. I downloaded an ebook of the second volume of Lydia Davis’s translation of Proust this morning.

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I also want to take as few real books with me as possible. I photocopied the Greek paragraph I am currently studying and its translation. I still plan to take the text with me but this saves me taking the two books in which the paragraph and the translation key are found.

Calefax makes me want to think about composing and improvising again. Vacation would seem to be a good time to compose, but I have been needing it for sheer relaxing and attempting to gain some kind of perspective on my life.

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I wanted to simply embed my YouTube playlist but of course I couldn’t figure out how to do that.

While I’m embedding stuff here’s a good video from Robert Reich.

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I will probably continue to blog while in California.

Dam. I do like this group.

 

a new drug

 

On Saturday after the reunion, Eileen and I stopped at Meijer. The day before I had received a text that a new prescription would be ready for pick up after 1 PM Saturday. I didn’t pay much attention to it. Meijer is a bit hit and miss but does occasionally use its text messages to inform me of automatically renewed prescriptions. That’s what I thought this was.

This would be a good chance for me to check with pharmacist and find out if their Valsartan HCT suppliers were indeed the ones from China mentioned in a recent NYT article as dangerous. So I went to the window and told them I was there to pick up a prescription and that I would also like to talk to the pharmacist about the Valsartan recall.

After ringing up my purchase, the attendant went and got the pharmacist. I asked her my question. She wanted to know if I had heard from them (I hadn’t). After a bit she told me that yes, indeed, my drug was being recalled. She said that normally they would just shift it out to another supplier of the drug but that if I would want to switch to a drug close to it she would recommend talking to my doctor about Losartan. She even wrote the name of the drug on my prescription bag.

Then on Sunday morning, I was putting the prescription away and noticed that it was for Losartan. I went on to the MY HEALTH website where I can view my medical information and sure enough, a doctor from my doctor’s office had prescribed it and there was no mention of the drug I was taking. Stopped taking the old drug yesterday and started taking the new one yesterday. So far no reaction.

I have been spending a lot of time with Couperin, Shostakovich, and Prokofiev on the keyboards (Couperin on my harpsichord synth, the other two on piano). Also doing some guitar practice. I am totally self taught on the guitar but since picking it up again am only playing classical music on it. I worked on putting more of my books in order yesterday and tried not to think about work.

Day after tomorrow we get on a plane and fly to California. I am looking forward to seeing the California branch of the fam, but at the same time I will miss the goofing off I have been doing.

I was planning to treadmill today but I’m feeling lazy. By the way, the air conditioning was successfully installed last week. It’s weird having it in the house. Plus my Mom’s old chair broke and Eileen arranged to have it fixed. They took it away last week and returned it today in working order.

 

fun at the reunion

 

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At the family reunion yesterday I had two surprising conversations. The first was with  an eighty year old man whom I did not recognize but turned out to be a relative who had driven up from Florida via Kentucky. His name was Al Hatch. He sat down and almost immediately began telling me the story of his second career. His first career had been to be a police captain. The second was regional manager for someone who owned hundreds of thousands of acres of farms spread all over the US.

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AL HATCH TALKING TO EILEEN, MARY, AND NANCY

Six months into the job his boss sent him to Indiana to check on the corn, wheat, and soy beans in the silos in a farm there. His boss had called some local buyers to negotiate a sale of his crop locally. The buyer informed him that he had already purchased the crop. This aroused suspicion enough to send his new employee, my relative, Mr. Hatch, to investigate.

When he arrived at the farm, he went over to one of several silos there and tapped on it. Empty. Not a good sign. He didn’t look inside for fear that if it wasn’t empty corn would come pouring out. He went to the farm home and knocked on the door. A woman answered. Mr. Hatch asked to speak to her husband but she told him he wasn’t there and she didn’t know where he was.

Mr. Hatch took her and her baby over to the silos and opened up one. Sure enough it was empty. All of them were. He asked to see the farm checkbook. It showed about 62 dollars. The produce was worth millions of dollars. They then proceeded to the local bank to find out what happened. Mr. Hatch wanted more facts before reporting to his new boss.

The bank president pulled up the records on the computer to reveal that the farm manager had been systematically writing checks to himself draining the account of over 2 million dollars. Now both he and the farm truck were gone. It was time to call the boss.

The boss was of course not happy about this. The first thing he did was change procedures of sale so that buyers wrote checks directly to the larger firm not to the local farm. Then he asked Mr. Hatch to find the thief.

Mr. Hatch turned up the truck at the parking lot of a local airport. The keys were in it. But there was no trace or record of the departed manager. Even traveling under an assumed name, he wouldn’t be able to get far with that much cash. Mr. Hatch ended up in Costa Rica looking for him. He figured that the manager had transfered funds to a different bank in Indiana and then wired the money to himself in Costa Rica.

That’s the really the end of the story. The dude got away. Mr. Hatch returned and under instructions of the boss hired a replacement for the manager. He kept on working at this job for another five years or so. He continued to keep in touch with the owner after he retired curious to find out if they ever caught this guy. Each year the report was that they were on his trail but had not caught him yet.

Last year, he was seen in Columbia. The owner asked Mr. Hatch to come out of retirement and go to Columbia to look for him. Which he did. But the closest he came was a motel room where the guy had stayed a week ago. Of course, no forwarding address.

It was pleasant sitting on the porch listening to the soft southern accent of this gentlemen spinning his story.

Later after I was alone on the porch, I was joined by Lizzie Hatch, a young relative who sat down and began chatting me up. She explained that they were living in Ohio now and had been for a couple of years. She missed her Michigan friends. I was totally charmed and flattered that she was so at ease and seemed interested in conversation with me.

Lizzie is in the red dress on the right.
Lizzie is in the red dress on the right.

When she left, Lizzie hugged me and said, “Goodbye, Uncle Steve.” So I enjoyed the Hatch family reunion a little more than usual this year.

from light and playful Bach to bitter profound Billie Holiday

 

Bach’s son, Carl Phillip Emmanuel, and his student Agricola wrote in his obit: “His [Bach’s] serious temperament drew him predominantly to hard-working, serious and profound music [arbeitsamen, ernsthaften, und tiefsinnigen]; but he could also, if it seemed necessary, particularly when playing, make himself comfortable with a light and playful manner of thinking.”

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The quote is from Peter Williams’ J. S. Bach: A Life. Williams concludes: “The Obituary’s remark was to counter any reputation Bach’s serious music had amongst everyday musicians, especially those engaged in the musical confections being marketed in the 1740s and 50s. But it brings us very little nearer envisaging his own approaches to performance, above all in the mature works where the intended Affekt is by no means always obvious or exclusive. The Aria of the Goldberg Variations is a good example: if it was meant to sound, as usual today, andante, dolce, piano, affetuoso, cantabile e tenero, it seems odd that none of these words (the first five of which were all used elsewhere by Bach) appears in the score. Furthermore, if the Aria were affetuoso, so woul be its ‘prototype’, the G major sarabande in the French Suites. So used now are listeners to being transported by the Aria’s opening bars to a unique contemplative world, especially by modern pianists, that envisaging anything different, anything more ‘light and playful’ is difficult. But not impossible.” p. 297, emphasis added

After reading this, I went to the Aria myself and tried playing it a bit more playful and just a tad faster than Glen Gould (whose name seems to be in the sentence above about ‘modern pianists’). It worked. Then I began playing the other variations. When the theme is not quite so ethereal the variations make more sense to me.

However when I searched on YouTube among the many versions there, I couldn’t find anyone who played the Aria that way. In fact, they sounded strongly influenced by Gould and think they probably are.

This is odd since Williams is a well known expert.

Zadie Smith Reads “Crazy They Call Me” – The New Yorker

This article is in Zadie Smith’s latest collection of essays, Feel Free: Essays. I read it when the New Yorker published it back in March and then again in the collection of essays.

It got me thinking about Billy Holiday. I pulled up the documentary on “Strange Fruit”

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I love Billie Holiday and I love the way she sings this bitter song. For some reason I thought she had written it. But it turns out it was written by a white Jewish guy named Abel Meeropol.

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If you don’t know this song, here’s a video of Billie Holiday singing it.

 

seeking perspective

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One thing I was hoping to get from taking time off was a fresh perspective. I think I might be approaching this a bit. It’s interesting to note that I’m not missing work nor even playing the very fine Pasi organ there. I think this says something about where my own enjoyment comes from. Music is very important to my daily life. It is the water I live in. But more and more in my sixties I live there alone.

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My only true colleague with whom I share some understanding is my boss, Jen Adams. This is a godsend and i know it. But though she is an astute boss, she’s not another musician. I share stuff with other local musicians, but I am feeling more and more that my own perspective is way more broad than any muscian I know. Yesterday morning I showered to the dulcet tones of John Lee Hooker. You know. The guy from the Blues Brothers

I admit that he was one of the few musicians in the Blues Brothers that I didn’t know that well, Cab Calloway is the other. I recently watched a “Making of Blues Brothers” video on YouTube and was annoyed with one thing about Jon Landis the director. He said that he had trouble with Aretha Franklin and James Brown because they couldn’t lip sync. This makes me crazy. He got around it by allowing them to perform their part live while the others lip synced. He didn’t mention John Lee Hooker.

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Anyway, my musical interests have always been rather wide ranging. From John Lee Hooker to Bartok, from the Doors to Bach, from … well you get the idea.  And they have led me into many interesting pursuits of understanding.  Often I am not able to match other musicians narrow understandings of music. This doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate where we overlap (Hi Rhonda!). It’s just that no one, and I mean no one, in my musical sphere comes close to seeing music the way I do.

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This has led me to think of myself as primarily a music lover. I think of it a bit like the idea of a common reader. My understanding of the common reader is they are motivated by the pleasure of what they read no matter where that leads them. Also I think of them as autodidacts (which is definitely the way I see myself).

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This makes me wonder if I am a sort of a common music lover. I definitely am not academic. Nor am I primarily a pop musician, a jazz musician, a blues musician, a harpsichordist, an organist, you name it. I guess I’ve gone a bit beyond dabbling in these areas. But my wide tastes make perfect sense to me.

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And part of the perspective I am developing is that I can pursue this wide approach by myself even though one of my great joys is making music with other people. So playing duets with Rhonda, playing with my piano trio, even leading a roomful of worshipers in common song is fun for me. But not doing any of this doesn’t seem to surface on my radar as something I am missing or long to do.

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I’m hoping that when I return to work, I can convince myself that truly not much is required of me there. I think part of my loss of perspective was confusing my own passion for music (especially as evidenced by learning pieces on the Pasi) with work. It never felt like work to practice on the Pasi. And indeed it wasn’t.  Doing my gig well does not necessarily involve challenging myself.  My job is about showing up on Sunday and leading from the organ and preparing the choir to assist in this.

My task is to help myself understand that when I return to work I can still do a lot of the goofing off I am doing now and even did before.

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You know. Perspective.

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Tomorrow Jupe shares new thoughts about the Aria of the Goldberg Variations and possibly the song, “Strange Fruit.” Tune in.