blathering on about reading resting and recitaling

 

There is something soothing to me about reading non-fiction. I have always curled up with histories and philosophies and used my tiny brain to try and process ideas. Maybe this is why I begin each day lately reading non-fiction. Maybe I fear losing my tiny brain to alzheimers or some other debilitating disease. It certainly doesn’t help to have watch my own father’s gradual loss of faculties.

At any rate I am attempting to do some resting this week  and having some success. Today I have a few tasks. I meet with my friend Rhonda at 10 to listen to her play an upcoming program. Organists do this for each other since the sound of the organ is often much different on the bench than in the room. Both of my organ teachers (Ferguson and Cramer) encouraged their students to play for each other, to seek out venues prior to a performance which would stretch and teach them.

Speaking of this, I did go and play at the Holland Christian High School yesterday with my student cellist. He was one of several players airing their pieces presumably for the up and coming Solo and Ensemble Festival. I was especially impressed with the audience. The performance took place in lecture hall wider than it was deep.

Students were scattered around quietly eating their lunch and listening to their fellow students perform. What I found unusual was  that there was a respectful silence while people played.

I guess I play so much music at church these days (preludes and postludes) in the presence of people who are engaged in other activities than listening that this felt unusual to me.

It’s one thing to watch a bunch of old people carted in from large retirement villages to listen respectfully to a noon recital at the Arts Council as I did recently. Quite another to watch handfuls of high school students stay quiet while live music goes on.

The recital was presided over by an official acting young man I presume to be a music teacher at Holland Christian High School. He ushered people on and off. Asked them to introduce themselves and their pieces. The first player was a Euphonium soloist who surprisingly played a piece by Alexander Guilmant (if I heard correctly). Next a bass clarinet player played a pair of baroque dances. Then we played.

The cellist had told me that if the string quartet showed up we were supposed to shorten our piece. We figured out where we could stop somewhere after half way. As we went up to play, he told me we would do the short version. He calmly sat with Eileen and me listening to his fellow students. But for some reason as he began to play I noticed he was playing in a less relaxed manner than he played in my living room.

This makes sense of course. It’s one of the reasons to “air” out a piece: to see how you actually play it as a piece of music and not as a rehearsal of a piece of music in the presence of listeners.

I listened to the recording my young cellist had mentioned that he had listened to of this piece, cellist Mistislav Rostropovich, pianist, Rudolf Serkin. When a young talented player tells me they have listened to a recording, it’s a good idea to check it out. Often young players have made their interpretive decisions colored by recordings they have heard.

I have been listening to many recordings of this movement. As I understand the movement, it’s more of a duet between cello and piano than a cello solo. Themes are traded back and forth, one player prominent then the other. I tried to do some of that yesterday. My cellist was a bit rattled. I hope this didn’t rattle him further.

After the mini recital, I helped the adult (teacher?) move the piano out of the room. He complimented me and asked me where I was from.

“Holland,” I replied.

silly me

 

I met with the cellist whose mom hired me to accompany him at the upcoming Solo and Ensemble last night. He is a good player and had a good grasp of the first movement of the Brahms E minor cello sonata. This is unusual in a high school student. Talented students often attempt pieces that are beyond them for some reason so just getting through the piece is challenging for them (and for their accompanist who is trying to follow them).

The Brahms E minor cello sonata is an attractive and interesting piece. It has been a good distraction for me as I try to rest up during Spring Break. I could really use some time off from church work which has been taking a toll me but I don’t see that happening soon.

At any rate, this kid could play the piece. At the end of the rehearsal he asked me if I would perform it today at 11 AM at a mini-recital for teachers at Holland Christian High School. Silly me. I said yes without stipulating more fees for an extra performance. Two reasons. First of all, I love the piece and it’s fun and rewarding to play. I do like playing especially with other performers. Secondly and probably more important it will be invaluable experience for us to test ourselves as a team. I find that high school students often perform differently (naturally) than they rehearse, usually introducing interesting and unanticipated variations (mistakes).

This player is a cut above some of the other students I have accompanied and I am interested to see how he performs. He has had lots of experience, seems confident. My strongest comment to him last night (besides pointing out how he skipped some beats, miscounting rests) was that he had two dynamics, loud and louder. Brahms unfortunately had some other ideas which he was ignoring. He never did adjust this totally. I adjusted my dynamics a bit louder to fit what he was doing.

At the high school level, this strikes me as a very small criticism. I will know more after today’s (unpaid) performance.

I finally finished Diarmaid McCulloch’s Christianity: The First Three Thousand Years.

I was reading in it last night and noticed that the prose was taking on a final conclusive air. I do like his writing and felt a slight disappointment when my Kindle version ended at the 78% mark. This means that 22% of the Kindle book is made up of notes and other stuff. Wow. One of my critiques of ebooks is that they dull the experience a bit by not being clearer about the size of what one is reading and where exactly one is in the book.

I think this book was highly informative and engagingly written. I learned a ton from reading it. I resisted my original notion to begin immediately to reread it. Instead, I turned to McCulloch’s Thomas Cranmer:  A Life and read a bit in it. Not sure I will put it on my daily reading list yet. 

newsetup

I cleared a place in my living room yesterday for my electric piano. I set it up and connected it to my laptop. I also connected the exterior hard drive I own which allowed me to access old Finale files. I managed to get everything to work with the new set up. I had to install a font  in order to do the Psalm for the bulletin. I use a font which mimics the font in the Book of Common Prayer. The one I found online and downloaded to my laptop seems to be a bit better than the one I had been using on the desktop.

It makes me happy that I can now use my laptop to make and/or edit music notation files. Cool.

The next step might be actually using the clunky wireless aspect of my  hopelessly antiquated printer. It’s wireless alright. But you can only talk to it via email not directly. Good grief.

burnout: the saga continues

 

I installed the extension “Better History” to my Chrome browser this morning. I ran across another Cavafy poem citation. This time it was in McCulloch’s Christianity: The First Three Thousand Years. I tried to remember why I had been looking at Cavafy.

I even put up a poem in a recent blog saying that I had stumbled across it. Well I’m damned if I know why and the extension didn’t help.

Alzheimers, no doubt.

Great. Losing my mind. Also feel invisible a lot these days. Burnout.

Speaking of being invisible, I looked at the Ralph Ellison Record Collection archive yesterday.

Ellison was a jazzer. I find it interesting that he preferred traditional jazz. He disdained his own generation’s innovations (Charlie Parker and “poor, evil, lost, little Miles Davis”). I admire Parker’s and Davis’s work but am always interested in deepening my exposure to musics especially when pointed at by a mind like Ellison’s. So I started spotifying his collection. I began with the 10 inch 78 list. After finding almost two hours of music  I quit in the middle of the Ellington 78s. Will probably return to this list for more later. In the meantime, I treadmilled and read a bit to the two hours worth I found. I do like old 78 recordings.

My brain is tired this morning.

I have the day off but still feel the stress of burnout and exhaustion. Hopefully some rest today and the rest of the week will help this. I still managed to wade through some of my usual morning reading. Until I ran across that dang Cavafy citation.

Oh well back to reading.

Hope you have good day, dear reader.

Mark Danner In the Darkness of Dick Cheney

This is a piece published last month, but has some clear insights about Cheney.

The links that follow are articles I plan to check out this morning.

Feature: John Carey: the constant reader | Features | Times Higher Education

Paul Krugman won’t save us: We need a new conversation about inequality – Salon.com

n+1: My Life and Times in Chinese TV

Getting inside Hamlet’s head – Book News | Literature & Book Reviews & Headlines

America’s Long and Productive History of Class Warfare – Justin Fox – Harvard Business Review

Nate Silver Interview: The New FiveThirtyEight — Daily Intelligencer

Some of these links are a bit old, but I’m still interested.

 

 

 

mothing nuch

 

Well it’s another dark Sunday morning and I’m doing my blog. I actually don’t have much to blog about today. My life is settling down a bit with a few less things cluttering my days during Spring Break. That’s nice.

I picked up Sarah Schulman’s Rat Bohemia last night and read the first five chapters. Sometimes I need an antidote to living in an insular little city in America at a time of when reactionary weird conservative illiterate misinformed stuff seems to dominate. Maybe I’m just drowning in silly America. Who knows? But Schulman’s a nice antidote.

I feel like I’m not doing my part lately by omitting links. Part of the expectation I have when I go to blogs is to be linked in to something interesting. So in that spirit here are few this morning.

OED quarterly update: March 2014 | OxfordWords blog

I love it that the Oxford Dictiionary’s blog uses pictures to illustrate new words they are adding.

bookaholic

 

Ralph Ellison’s Record Collection : The New Yorker

One of the best parts of visiting people is checking out their collections of books and music. I haven’t read this article yet but it looks like fun.

As Owners of Roadside Institution Enter

Political Fray, Texans Weigh Their Loyalties

Fun little read with lots of Texas characters.

The Science of Older and Wiser – NYTimes.com

Lots of interesting info in this article including

3 key components of wisdom:

cognition, reflection and compassion.

5 elements of personal wisdom

self-insight;
the ability to demonstrate personal growth;
self-awareness in terms of your historical era and your family history;
understanding that priorities and values, including your own, are not absolute;
and an awareness of life’s ambiguities.

today’s reality

 

I know that my approach to blogging has gone from pioneering my own web site years ago to becoming unfashionable in the way I approach what I put up online. I don’t write to attract an audience only to attempt to reach out in conversation or at least spark some thought. I know my extended fam uses this blog to take my temperature conveniently and I’m gratified by that.

But I often picture what I write here as though I were sitting in a room with tolerant intelligent friends/family and running across ideas or passages in books that are so interesting I have to read them out loud.

This morning’s passages that grabbed me were a couple of astute descriptions from Charles Taylor’s A Secular Age in which he aptly describes aspects of today’s reality.

“… the change in urban environment: contrast a mediaeval city crowded around its Gothic cathedral with a modern metropolis. It’s not just that skyscrapers now dwarf the cathedral, if one remains. This might be seen as reflecting a new set of meanings which have taken over from the old, say; Capitalism replacing Christianity. But actually, the change is more drastic. It is more like cacophony replacing meaning as such. The shape of the city no longer manifests a single over-arching meaning, but on the one hand, individual great buildings each monumentalize some corporation or triumphant entrepreneur, while on the other, vast areas of the city form a crazy quilt of special purpose constructions—factories, malls, docks—following each some fragmentary instrumental rationality.”

“On another level, the ‘atonal banshee of emerging egomania’ unavoidably impinges through the ubiquity of advertising and the entertainment media, insistently calling us each to our own satisfaction and fulfillment, linking the powerful forces of sexual desire and the craving for wholeness, constitutive elements of our humanity, to products promoted to the status of icons, and in the process obscuring emptying, and trivializing these forces themselves.”

Sorry to put in such long quotes, but I think they are amazing and helpful observations.

I managed to do some serious resting yesterday. In the course of the day I did practice. Also I managed to figure out how to get a copy of music software on my laptop. I was going about it all wrong. I figured I had to “deauthorize” my desktop copy in order to install it  on my laptop. I managed to get Finale 2008 installed on my laptop. Before authorizing it there however I bogged down with my desktop which refused to allow Finale to deauthorize no matter how many firewalls I took down. I finally called Finale. They were extremely enlightening.

First of all, I had installed the old version, 2008 instead of 2011. These are two distinct programs. I had not noticed that I had the discs for 2011. Secondly, the support guy from Finale pointed out that I had authorization for  two installed copies of my software. Cool.

Now I have it installed on my laptop and my desktop.

My plan is to now put my electric piano in a more convenient place now that I can use my laptop to make and edit music notation.

 

Time Off

 

Today I am planning a day off. Yesterday I crammed in visits to the local grocery stores so I would have today free. Plus Friday is a busy day at them.

The violinist didn’t show for our piano trio rehearsal. So the cellist and I spent a delightful hour with some cello solos. Vaughan Williams has written some beautiful simple settings for solo instrument and piano, “Six Studies in English Folksong.”


They are originally for cello and piano but have been arranged for other instruments including clarinet, alto sax, bassoon and tuba.

The third one is based on the hymn tune, King’s Lynn. (2:55 in the video above) I made a note in my cross index of music based on hymn tunes for future reference.

We also read completely through the third movement of Beethoven’s Sonata for Cello and Piano, Op. 5, no. 1. Here’s the original published cello part of it.

 

beethovencello01

 

And the piano part.

beethovencello02

I like the look of the old music. Here’s the way it’s usually put together.

beethovencello03

It has some engaging melodies in it. A good way to spend some time in the afternoon.

I especially like the B theme:

beethovencello04

It begins in the third measure of the piano part above. The cello picks it up five measure later. This is about 1:53 in the video below.

Needless to say, we read it way under tempo. Still, it was lots of fun.

I finished up with Borstslap’s The Classical Revolution: Thoughts on the New Music in the 21st Century. 

Ultimately I think he’s speaking in far too narrow a way about music today. But it’s always interesting to read someone who has a good mind with whom one disagrees.

If you’re interested here’s the list I took down of the composers he recommends.

1. Nicholas Bacri

http://www.nicolasbacri.net/

2. James Francis Brown

 http://www.jamesfrancisbrown.com/homepage.asp

3. Richard Dubugnon

http://www.richarddubugnon.com/

4. David Matthews

http://www.david-matthews.co.uk/homepage.asp

5. Alan Mills

http://www.cmc.ie/composers/composer.cfm?composerID=86

6. Jeff Hamburg

http://www.jeffhamburg.com/

7. Wolfgang-Andreas Schultz

http://www.wolfgangandreasschultz.de/

8. Wolfram Wagner

http://www.wolfram-wagner.com/

9. Reza Vali

http://www.rezavali.com/biography.htm

10. Hans Kox

http://www.classical-composers.org/comp/kox

11. John Bortslap (author) 

http://johnborstlap.com/

burnout?

 

Relaxing during some extended time off  can begin with a period where one’s head is still spinning. That’s how I’m feeling this morning.

Hope college spring break officially begins tomorrow morning but I don’t have any Thursday classes so my break begins today.

I have accepted a gig to accompany a high school cello player for Solo and Ensemble which is a week from this Saturday. He is playing the first movement of the Brahms cello sonata, so I will be scrambling to have it ready. A pleasant distraction.

Haven’t been paid for the Hope gig from last week. I will email the conductor tomorrow. That will be seven days since the gig.

I changed my postlude yesterday. I did have a boisterous  postlude based on the closing hymn, “Lift High the Cross.” Instead I decided to play another quiet piece like last week. “Da Jesus an dem Kreuze stund” BWV 621 from Bach’s Orgelbüchlein. No preludes in Lent, since we will be using a gathering refrain.

 

This morning I am feeling very cynical about my artistic relationship to Grace church. So what the fuck. Even though my organ playing seems to be not very apparent to parishioners, I persist and schedule excellent music and play it as well as possible.  But sometimes  it’s hard not to feel that I am persisting in a dying and unwanted art.

I’m hoping that in the holes where I usually would be doing ballet classes in the next week or so, I can recuperate and lose a little of this burnout.

I’m certainly planning to try.

1. The Spies Who Didn’t Love Her – NYTimes.com

Langly needs a come to jesus moment.

2. The Future of Internet Freedom – NYTimes.com

NYT tries to stay on the good side of Google by letting them pontificate in this article written by Goolgers.

3. Ukraine’s President Rebuffs Russian ‘Imperialism’ – NYTimes.com

I love it when people in the news write the articles. Interesting but one must remain skeptical.

4. The responsibility of adjunct intellectuals | Al Jazeera America

Interesting well written article about public thinking and writing.

the city of ideas (and music)

 

Early yesterday morning, my boss and my friend Craig Cramer took a look at the predicted weather and postponed the Organ Committee meeting scheduled for last night. This was necessary but regrettable. It also left me with an entirely free day. Unfortunately my brain continued to buzz with this and that until well into the afternoon. Finally I sat down at the computer and put finishing touches on the setting of “In Deepest Night” I performed Sunday and emailed it off to Augsburg for consideration for publication.

Augsburg holds the copyright on the melody in my chorale prelude. It seemed logical (if futile) to present them with the opportunity to publish it. I have come to the conclusion that my own musicality is made up of parts that do not translate easily into any larger community’s understanding. Also that I am pretty satisfied with the direction of my musical life. So feeling like an old eccentric, I pursue what makes sense to me. But I’m also aware of the lack of response of publishers and listeners.

So be it.

Unsurprisingly I was feeling a bit disconnected yesterday.

Eileen went out to meet a friend for an evening meal last night. I sat exhausted once again in my living room, sipped a martini and gently slept in front of Orson Welles “The Trial.” Surprisingly the entire movie is sitting on YouTube.

This morning I stumbled across a poem by a poet I admire: C. P. Cavafy.

The young poet Evmenis
complained one day to Theocritos:
“I have been writing for two years now
and I have composed just one idyll.
It’s my only completed work.
I see, sadly, that the ladder of Poetry
is tall, extremely tall;
and from this first step I now stand on
I will never climb any higher.”
Theocritos replied: “Words like that
are improper, blasphemous.
Just to be on the first step
should make you happy and proud.
To have come this far is no small achievement:
what you have done is a glorious thing.
Even this first step
is a long way above the ordinary world.
To stand on this step
you must be in your own right
a member of the city of ideas.
And it is a hard, unusual thing
to be enrolled as a citizen of that city.
Its councils are full of Legislators
no charlatan can fool.
To have come this far is no small achievement:
what you have done already is a glorious thing.”

Translated by Edmund Keeley/Philip Sherrard

(C.P. Cavafy, Collected Poems. Translated by Edmund Keeley and Philip Sherrard. Edited by George Savidis. Revised Edition. Princeton University Press, 1992)

I found this poem quietly chastening. Even at the ripe old age of 62, I identify with the young poet in this poem. Feeling disconnected, I am actually firmly on the first artistic step. To get that far is not exactly “a glorious thing,” but it is a privilege to be a low member of the city of ideas (and music).

1.Obama’s New Approach Takes a Humorous Turn – NYTimes.com

I found Obama/Galifianakis “Between Two Ferns” collaboration painful. Subjecting the office of the Presidency to the mean, awkward humor that is so much contemporary comedy was more than I could stand watching.

2. Live Reporting on Autopsy Banned at Pistorius Trial – NYTimes.com

They set out a pail for the defendant to vomit in. Which he did.

3. What It Means to Be Catholic Now – NYTimes.com

Bob Batastini invited me to a gathering of former NPM chapter directors. (Was I actually the director?) I emailed him back that it sounded like fun, but did he know that I wasn’t Roman Catholic. I probably offended his liberal soul, but it seems to me that all the Roman music and liturgy jobs are going strictly to “practicing Catholics” who can support the current counter-liturgical reformation in the Roman church right now. Plus it’s not exactly getting looser under the new Pope (who admittedly projects a kinder gentler image but remains steely within the bounds of the reactivity). Batastini protested and assured me I was invited even if not RC.

4. After the Veto – NYTimes.com

Linda Greenhouse coherently points out that we don’t have “war on religion.” Rather we have a war on tolerance (my word not hers) waged in the name of religion.

5. Palin Mocked in 2008 for Warning Putin May Invade Ukraine if Obama Electe

Yikes. Palin quote that seems prescient. If you’re in the mood for a giggle read the comments on this one.

6. Perspective: Microsoft risks security reputation ruin by retiring XP – Computerworld

So Microsoft isn’t exactly suing customers, only abandoning about a third of XP users worldwide. Nice.

the wile e coyote effect

 

Tried to clear today of as many tasks as possibly to give me a day off. The Organ Committee is meeting with Craig Cramer this evening, but that is my only scheduled event for the day. I know that meetings even at their best leave this introvert with his interior emotional terrain shaking. So given that ending of the day, I am going to attempt to putz around the house today and do as little as possible. This is not as easy as it sounds, at least not for me. I found my brain rattling on this morning at about the time I usually get up.

Nothing for it, but to get up, make coffee and read as usual.

morningcoffee

No pics in yesterday’s post due to time constraints. 8:30 AM comes especially early on Monday morning after an active Sunday. In between classes yesterday I was on the phone with Craig Cramer discussing this evening’s meeting. The organ committee draws nearer to a decision. It was unfortunate that none of them (including the boss) came out to my Sunday evening recital. The acoustics at Harkerwyk are pretty good and much better than what most people in church experience in the US. I would like my organ committee to have what I think of as the “Eileen epiphany.”

When Eileen accompanied me to Charleston for a Hymn Society Convention which necessarily included a lot of hymn singing in good acoustics, her takeaway was profound. Singing in that kind of environment is an experience that is both rewarding and surprising. At the worship commission meeting last night I pointed out that the acoustics would improve with the installation of a new organ because the builder would stipulate at least some improvement. This would benefit our congregational singing.

Of course sitting exhausted in my living room on Tuesday morning it’s hard to hold back waves of realism (cynicism?) about what actually ends up happening in churches. I have some small sad doubts about how realistic my dreams are. But that’s more about me. Ultimately I’m trying to keep my own involvement appropriate. Which means the decisions, energy and direction must come from the community I serve. I’m not convinced the community has much more than inertia around prayed liturgy connection with the arts. But that could be the exhaustion talking. Yesterday I arrived at the choir room to look up some organ music to find this on the board.

thankyousteve

I only hope that it was done by a choir member since it calls the singers “amateur.”

I managed to get up to speed on my cycle of providing bulletin information and Sunday Psalms yesterday. This means I submitted not only this Sunday’s stuff but a week from Sunday’s as well. This little jump in prep is my own contribution to attempting to help planners think a tiny bit a head concretely. It helps me a lot to get a seven day jump on final plans.

Being as busy as I have been has the unfortunate side effect of feeling like I should be doing something (what has my aging alzheimer’s brain forgotten this time?) even when I have some unstructured time. I think of it as the Wile E. Coyote effect.

Nevertheless, I plan to goof off today.

Sunday afternoon recital report

 

I enjoyed playing at the Members’ Recital yesterday afternoon though exhausted and still feeling the effects of flu/cold/whatever-it-was. It was inspiring to me to see other local church organists playing their prepared pieces. Huh. People do give a shit about this stuff, eh? There was an eighth grader who put in a respectable performance. I had a chance to chat with her and she was enthusiastic about her connection to music. It helps an old fart to see young people like her and the musicians in the Saturday performance who seem genuinely interested in my passion (music that includes more than what is consumed by so many these days).

I was surprised to see a couple choir members from my own church in attendance. Though I made an effort to let my community know about this, emailing the organ committee and the choir, putting up posters and making an announcement at church, I didn’t expect anyone to come. I reasoned that if they basically ignore my organ playing around the service why would they drive a few miles to hear me play? You never know why people do  or don’t do anything, but it sort of looks like I was correct. One woman fussed at me after church pointing out that Rhonda and I keep scheduling recitals at the same time as the popular “Three at three” recitals at one of the local Reformed churches. I told her that one can’t attend everything or even avoid over lapping with other stuff entirely.

I played okay. After church I rested for a little bit and then got up and rehearsed my Bach on the piano and drove to church and did a final rehearsal of my piece on the organ despite my Sunday afternoon fatigue. I certainly attempted to prepare this performance. I made a goofy error in the Bach Cantus Firmus in the soprano on the repeat that was pretty glaring. After it happened I thought to myself I should have not repeated the first section after all. I had briefly considering skipping this repeat because the recital was going a bit longer than I like recitals to go. Eileen said it didn’t feel long to her, but also observed that she does go to these kind of performances pretty regularly (gentle reminder there).

The high point of playing for me was leading the listeners in the hymn. They gamely followed my request to divvy up the verses with Men on Stanza 1, Women on Stanza 2 and all on three. Despite my careful prep for this hymn, I gave in to my instinct and mostly improvised my accompaniment with a couple short interludes. I did this not only to illustrate the meaning of the hymn and connect to the sung moment, but also to allow other organists a peek at how I often approach a hymn. The good acoustics of Harderwyk made the sound of the singing especially satisfying to me.

I accidentally mis-registered my own piece.  I couldn’t find many sounds on this instrument that I thought were appropriate and good, so I had intended to couple the Great Flute to the pedal both at the 8 foot (written pitch) and 4 foot (an octave higher). Instead I inadvertently coupled the great to itself at the 4 foot pitch. Silly because I didn’t play on the great on this piece.

The result was the melody was too soft at first. I quickly realized what I had done. About half way through I popped on the missing coupler. Unsatisfied with the performance so far I sneakily repeated the first section so i could at least render it once correctly. I later was reminded of a colleague’s performance in which she was unhappy with the way she had played a Bach orgelbüchlein piece (these are short) and simply took a breath and played again better. I always admired that.

that was fun

 

I had fun performing with the Hope High School Honors Band last night. I had a rehearsal, a dress rehearsal and  a performance. Gabe Southard the conductor and founder of this event was friendly and easy to work with.

I found his leadership of a group of high school musicians inspiring. Participants were drawn from 12 Michigan high schools mostly but not all from Western Michigan. I found myself reminded of State High School Honors Bands and Interlochen bands I had played in as a high school trumpet player. Those experiences were inspiring to me. Southard did an excellent job of programming works that were meaty.

The program including the compositions “Flourish for Wind Band” by Ralph Vaughan Williams and a transcription of the last movement of Shostakovich’s Fifth symphony.

Add on to this Ticheli’s engaging “Angels in the Architecture” and an interesting recent piece “Dusk” by Steven Bryant and you have a nicely balanced selection.

Frank Ticheli

Steven Bryant

It encouraged me to see so many young people engaged in good music. There’s really nothing like sitting with a large ensemble and making music. These kinds of experiences can help form people into being able to embrace and enjoy one of the cool things in life: good music.

Speaking of good music, the evening also helped me continue to disassemble Borstlap’s notion of “new classical music” in my own brain. I keep wondering how aware he is of all the music that is being made. When one factors in the choral tradition and the wind ensemble tradition there actually was never a full falling away of tonality that Borstlap seems so obsessed with. Maybe it’s another case of a certain kind of insularity of orientation.

I find my own notions are constantly expanded by experiencing music and ideas new to me.

I paced myself through yesterday’s rehearsals and performance resting in between each. This morning I don’t seem to have the extra achy body and upset stomach I have been having so that’s nice. I felt good about my participation in the High School Honors thingo. It turns out that Southard had in mind the organ “obliterating” (his word) the ensemble upon its entrance. I ended up doing that abhorrent classical organist training think and plopping the fucking crescendo pedal down for the entrance and then retracting to a chorus of the loudest stops on the great and then taking them off for a stepping down of dynamics. This worked well. And I like this piece as I did all of the pieces Southard scheduled.

The evening was rounded off when a parent of one of the players approached me and reminded me he had taken a music appreciation class from at Grand Valley. He surprised me with his memories of the class and me. This doesn’t happen to me as much it used to when I taught more. It’s always fun to meet students later and see that music is still a part of their lives and this case part of their kids lives. Nice.,

Today I have to perform two organ pieces at church and at the Members recital this afternoon. I have only been working on these two since Monday but I have been working hard on them. I have high hopes of playing well. Also that my aches and stomach ache don’t return at a inopportune time.

uh oh, jupe isn’t feeling good

 

I got up yesterday morning after reading for two hours. As is not unusual, my body was sore from sitting. I didn’t think anything of it, until later in the day. I went to Harderwyk church and registered my pieces I will play there on Sunday. Came home and picked up Eileen and we went to the Brown Bag concert at the Holland Area Arts Council (more on that in a minute). I came home and quickly realized that my body ached all over. Oh no. I need to be on my game this weekend because I would like to acquit myself well in the music I will be performing (Tonight’s honor band concert, tomorrow’s church service, and tomorrow afternoon’s organ recital).

I spent the rest of yesterday laying down and aching. I did get up and make myself exercise on the treadmill, but I didn’t feel very well.

I slept fitfully but feel better this morning. This aching seems to come in waves. Cold? Flu? Food poisoning? Don’t know. I plan to take it easy and try to coast through the next two days.

I was drawn to the noon brown bag concert at the Arts Council for two reasons.

It featured some work by student composers and my friend Rhonda was performing. Eileen has been suffering from a cold as well (no body aches for her, however). She said she wanted to get out when I mentioned we could go check this out.

The program was interesting and varied. From Chopin to Chick Corea to music made up recently. Just my kind of venue. The student composers had done an assignment in which they studied an unaccompanied flute piece, then wrote one. I’m not sure who the composer was they studied, but I heard a bit of Density 21.5 by Varese go by in the first of the four pieces. It wasn’t Varese they had studied but I couldn’t help but wonder if I was hearing a third-hand quotation.

 

I was quite taken with the third piece, “Scherzo: My Apologies” by Callahan Davenport and the fourth piece, “Even vs. Odd” by Jamie Steinman.

Sax player, Matt Milliken and Music department chair and jazz pianist extraordinaire, Rob Hodson gave a convincing jazz performance of the standard, “There is no Greater Love.”

Meghan Stahl and Andrew Valesano also did a jazz piece. I struggle with what exactly jazz is supposed to be these days. I see most of the jazz I love as historical music (like Bach) created in its flowering. Its historicity is in tension with its basic nature of spontaneity. Milliken/Hodson were convincing in their historical recreation of spontaneity. I see this as improvising in the baroque style or whatever only situated in the 20th century. Meghan Stahl mentioned that what she was doing a “recreation” of a performance she heard on YouTube of Chick Corea and Bobby McFerrin doing Cores’s classic tune, “Spain.” She chose it because she is a double major: Music and Spanish.

Unfortunately I came home and popped up some YouTube videos and heard where she got her improvs.

It was beautiful done, but it struck me a bit like Elvis impersonation, admittedly on a bit of more aesthetic and beautiful plane.

Rhonda played well as usual. She accompanied Jessica Hronchek in a witty if difficult satirical piece about a tone deaf singer, “A Word on My Ear” by Flanders and Swann.

Hi, Art!

 

Finished reading the bulk of John Borstlap’s The Classical Revolution: Thoughts on New Music in the 21st Century. I am now on the 9th chapter which is an annotated list of composers who fall within the Borstlap’s rubric of new classical music. Right now I am listening to Nicholas Bacri’s Flute Concerto which Borstlap mentions. Ultimately Borstlap’s prose did not convince me that he is seeing things coherently. I think he is stuck in an academic European orientation which has not been kind to him and sees the entire situation largely through that. However, many of his comments and criticisms seem quite correct or at least insightful about how to understand music now.

 

But he continues to draw some harsh “either/or lines” between his idea of what true music is and much of what is happening around him.

He often chooses the worst to illustrate his point making it hard to refute. His first cited example follows. One can hear his frustration.

“In 2005, a Dutch composer made his five- and ten-year old sons fiddle randomly at a keyboard, the result of which was—via a computer program—translated into a performable score for a collection of instruments, also randomly ‘chosen’ by the kids. The composer offered the short piece to the [Dutch Ministry of Education, Culture and Science music] fund, who not only paid € 3,000 for it but complimented the composer with the quality of the piece’s craftmanship, adding that the idiom transcended his ‘regular work.'” p. xi

Borstlap says that the composers he is recommending do not necessarily share his own ideas about the “new classical music.”  Also there are no footnotes in this work. Published by Scarecrow press it is self described in a blurb on the back cover as “a simply written polemic for lovers of pre-modern and new traditional classical music.” Polemic it certainly is.

But I am always happy to find recommendations about composers whose work I don’t know.

Yesterday I was able to spend some time on the Skinner organ at Hope College’s Dimnent Chapel. I am preparing for a very small part in a performance tomorrow night. I didn’t turn immediately to Frank Tischi’s organ score, but rather began with some music I have performed recently at church. I listened to the sounds of the organ, I recalled Eileen’s reaction to my postlude on Ash Wednesday, When I mentioned to her it was the same little Bach piece (O Mensch bewein dein Sünde gross bwv 622) we heard Olivier Latry perform on the Notre Dame Paul Fritts organ recently. She wrinkled her nose and said that it obviously wouldn’t sound as good (she had not sat and listened to my postlude as she usually does but had gone up to put her choral music in order of the upcoming choir rehearsal).

Sigh.

I guess it’s inevitable as I contemplate having more access in the future to a decent pipe organ of some sort, that I would see my present attempts at making my organ sound good as pretty discouraging. But nevertheless I will persist.

As I finished up my rehearsal a high school choral director I have worked with wandered in for some sort of rehearsal.  She introduced me to her accompanist (Sherry Muller?). I told them both that I didn’t usually get asked to do anything with Hope’s Music department but because of Rhonda’s recommendation I had been asked to perform with the Hope honors band on Saturday. I didn’t get a chance to talk to Muller who is a staff accompanist, but did welcome her to Holy old Holland Michigan.

In the afternoon I had my first piano trio rehearsal in a while. My cellist has had wrist surgery and we haven’t rehearsed during her recuperation. It is a pleasure to sit and play with these two fine musicians. Yesterday we did two movements from Beethoven’s Eb piano trio (his Opus 1). Beautiful music. I thought of how important this musical experience is to me and the people I am playing with when I read this section in Borstlap this morning:

Real and meaningful art ” should be the island of civilization where people will drink at the well of real humanity so that they can be able to face  the challenges of modern life and protect the values of the human spirit. High art is an exercise of what is best in the human being.”

I can’t disagree with that.

whew

 

I like to write blog posts that contain little insights from my daily life. For example, this morning I was struck by the corollary between the way slave holders turned to the concept of white supremacy to stoke support in the general population of the Southern United States and the way the US right wing sometimes stokes its base in the 21st century. The former was necessary because most Southerners did not actually own slaves. So a hideous ideology took root.  Likewise the majority of supporters of much of the right ideology often vote against their own self interest to support the causes of rich Republicans. Very odd.

But today I’m not really having many insights, just exhaustion. Yesterday was a hump day from hell. I am working more hours on Wednesday at the ballet department this term. So I was at the college for four and half hours yesterday morning (one hour off from playing). Then a staff meeting at church. Eileen brought me the salad I had prepared for myself and we sat and had lunch together at church. Then I worked for another hour or so preparing for the evening Ash Wednesday service and post service choir rehearsal. Came home and rested for an hour then back for the soup supper/service/rehearsal.

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Whew.

Now I have a few days off. I am not scheduled to play any more ballet classes until next Monday (I’m not needed for my usual Friday class). But I have two upcoming performances this weekend that I must continue to prepare for: Saturday evening with the Hope Honors Band and the Sunday afternoon AGO Members’ Recital. I need to spend a little time on the two organs I will be performing on.

In the course of submitting the hymn I will play at the Members’ Recital Sunday I noticed the permission tag in the RiteSong Software which contains many of the Episcopal hymnals  we draw from in our bulletin. Yikes.

We are illegally printing up many of our hymns in our weekly bulletin without obtaining copyright permission. I brought this to my boss’s attention in our meeting yesterday (another thing I did I forgot to mention). She agreed we should rectify this. I’m not sure how that’s going to play out.

I was aware we were printing things without obtaining copyright permission. I just did not realize that the software we use has a way to do this. I am ambivalent about copyrights that discourage the proper use of material (like singing from the Episcopal hymnals in an Episcopal congregation after purchasing hymnals and software). But I do feel a professional (if not ethical) responsibility to attempt to follow the laws.

I find that if I ask myself if I am breaking a copyright law, I usually am since they are weirdly strict (in my reading of them).

Since It Can’t Sue Us All, Getty Images Embraces Embedded Photos

I had to add this link after publishing the blog today. It’s a link to a Business Week article. I know that I’m violating copyrights when I use pics on my blog. My rationalization is that I’m making a little  collage for my fam and a few other readers. Not for profit. If someone complains as they sometimes do, I simply remove the image often wondering what makes their picture so special and why they would not want people to look at it.

angels in the architecture

 

For the first time since moving here in 1987 (to the best of my faltering memory), I have been asked to do something with the music department at Hope College. My friend Rhonda passed on an organ gig with the Hope Honors Band this weekend. So many thanks to her. Since I am such a whiner about being invisible to the locals I felt like I better sign on to do it. It turns  out to be a very interesting piece called “Angels in the Architecture.”

 

Composed by Frank Ticheli, it’s a fifteen minute extravaganza of a wind ensemble piece. It begins (and ends) with a soprano solo, an elegant little take on a 19th century Shaker hymn. In between Ticheli imagines an aural battle between light and darkness. The organ comes in briefly at the climax (11:43 in the video above).

I quite like the piece and look forward to performing it with the Hope Honors Band. Thank you Rhonda.

1. Process ‘Reboot’ Aims to End Senate Gridlock – NYTimes.com

A modest attempt to get the Senate working again.

2. China Blames Xinjiang Separatists for Stabbing Rampage at Train Station – NYTimes

Some members of my family and I are following this story in China. My daughter Elizabeth and her husband Jeremy living in Kunming for a while and Eileen and I had a lovely visit with them at one point.

3. At Carnival, Where Challenging Normal Is the Norm – NYTimes.com

An unusual Carnival celebration in Rio De Janeiro which includes psychiatric patients, their doctors and others.

4. Alain Resnais, Acclaimed Filmmaker Who Defied Conventions, Dies at 91 – NYTimes

Maker of “Hiroshima Mon Amour.”

5. Tennent H. Bagley, Who Aided, Then Mistrusted a Soviet Spy, Dies at 88 – NYTimes.c

I am drawn to real life spy stories.

 

taking a day off…. hey, it could happen

 

So this morning blogging is a pleasant interlude in a relaxed morning for me. I have somehow managed to have most of today to myself. At 6 I will join the rest of the organ committee at Hope College and Huw Lewis, the organ guy there, will show us the organs there. I am hoping this will be a a low key meeting. I want to keep a low profile at it.

I have been doing my usual reading this morning. Yesterday I emailed back and forth with Rhonda about Sunday’s Member Recital. I offered to do several combinations of pieces and hymns. She asked me to do the one where I will play Bach’s “Aus tiefer Not” BWV 687 and follow it with everyone singing Susan Palo Cherwien’s text, “In Deepest Night,” sung to Emily Mason Porter’s tune with which it is paired in the Episcopal Hymnal supplement, Voices Found. Then, I will play a composition of my own based on this tune called “A Saving Breath.”

I admit that this little set was inspired a bit by Olivier Latry’s clever programming. Porter’s tune borrows from the melody, “Aus tiefer Not” beginning with the same five note patter as it does. The title of my piece is drawn from the third stanza of Susan Cherwien’s hymn: “When through the waters winds our path, around us pain, around us death: deep calls to deep, a saving breath…”

Augsburg press owns the copyright to both text and tune. I can’t share my composition because I don’t have permission to use the Porter tune. A rep from Augsburg emailed me and I took it down from my blog (see my blog post from Sept 17, 2009, “Step away from the hymntune“). This is especially ironic because Porter borrowed from Martin Luther, but like Disney, Augsburg guards its own derived copyrights weirdly and has successfully stifled me from sharing my composition. It even discourages me from trying to get it published. Judging from my experience with Grail translation, it’s barely worth it for a composer to use existing copyrighted material like a hymn tune or a translation because the copyright owners insist on splitting the meager profits one makes from publishing music. The Grail ladies get 5% from my choral composition using their translation of Psalm 51, as do I. Their cut comes out of my original 10% agreement with MorningStar. It’s all moot because no one really buys my choral music and MorningStar has distanced itself from me.

Anyway I am delighted that Rhonda has chosen this set and also am planning to use the two pieces as the prelude and postlude for this coming Sunday. It is a pleasure to learn Bach and I’m happy to show some people one of my own compositions, something I don’t do that often these days.

I’m planning to use some of my leisure time today to read up on the Bach tunes I’m using this week. I’m playing prelude and postlude by him tomorrow night at Ash Wednesday. Prelude: Ich ruf zu dir, Herr Jesu Christ (I Call On Thee, Lord Jesus Christ)  BWV 639 and Postlude: O Mensch, bewein’ dein’ Sünde gross (O mankind, mourn your great sins) BWV 622. This is how they will appear in the bulletin. I have played this pair for a few years in a row for Ash Wednesday. This works out well for me because it ensures that I am keeping some of the great organ music of Bach connected to the church year at Grace. My thinking is that repetition serves this music.

Today I’m planning to not only consult my more recent resources (Peter Williams’ invaluable The Organ  Music of Bach: Second Edition and the Leupold Edition of  the “Clavier-Übung III) but also to dig out my Schweitzer’s two volume J. S. Bach. Schweitzer scholarship is dated but I like to read what he says about the meaning of Bach’s sacred work. It sometimes still helps me understand it.

 

reading and thinking about music and dance

 

Ruminating over Saturday night’s lengthy dance concert. I found it interesting that one of the more fascinating pieces to me was a reconstruction of a 1992 dance by the founder of the department, Maxine DeBruyn. The name of the piece was “doodle, doodle, doodle, SNICK.” Four dancers were dressed in contrasting body suits of single bright colors. Each of them had a long piece of elastic which ran from their head to their hands to their feet. Each convincingly maintained a startled facial expression with an open “oh” mouth. I was prepared by all this cutesyness to dislike the piece, but was quickly drawn in to its cleverness. There were two sections of  music (many of the other nine pieces had three sections!). What I remember about the first one was that old fashioned record vinyl noise was part of the music. Disappointingly I just googled the composer, Remi Gassmann, and found that he was used by the prominent dance choreographer George Ballanchine.

I seem to remember the second section as  being a synthesized piece that went well with the dated costumes and effective lighting.

Anyway, the over all effect of the evening to me was a lot of very sincere and talented young dancers who sincerely danced their teacher’s choreography and gave it their all. But the pieces themselves seemed to add up to an evening that demanded an audience indulge its designers with more patience than I would ask from any audience these days. The evening was about two hours and twenty minutes long.

When I compare that to how difficult I find it to keep an audience’s attention these days it seems doubly insulated by it’s context of the insular college environment and the unreal world of conservative Western Michigan.

Jes sayin,

I continue to plow through John Bortslap’s The Classical Revolution: thoughts on new music in the 21st Century. I’m about half way through. It’s obvious to me that Bortslap is a classic example of one of the blind man who has hold of a piece of the elephant and mistakes it for the whole.

His narrow definition of music (tonal sound organization in Western civ)  omits so much music that is important to me and indeed probably significant to the human experience that it’s basically meaningless. He often couches his comments in extremely purple prose colored with his own anger:

He describes a recent textbook on Serialism in Music as “a remarkable exercise in useless superfluity, with serialism being the most pointless, meaningless, amateuristic, destructive and nonsensical endeavor the musical world has ever seen…”

Come on, John, I think as I read, tell us how your really feel.

I am sympathetic with his critique of much modern academic writing. However his rejection of all music but the music he deems worthwhile and intelligently expressive is ludicrous. I ascribe it to his narrow academic European (Dutch!) experience.

Hey but what do I know?

 

1. A History Lesson That Needs Relearning – NYTimes.com

Sam Tanenhaus rehearsing history in the face of the present Ukrainian crisis including origin of the phrase, “the cold war.”

2. Chokwe Lumumba, 66, Dies; Activist Who Became Mayor in Mississippi – NYT

One of Michigan’s own. Makes this Holland Michigan resident proud.

3. A Guide to the 2014 Whitney Museum Biennial – NYTimes.com

A blow by blow of some interesting art work.

tired old fart

 

Somehow I ended up with a very busy day off yesterday. So busy I didn’t have time to exercise. I got up and began working on two dishes to take to an evening meal with friends (the Edgington fam and Barb Phillips). I wanted to make a vegetarian curry and a chicken stir fry. I baked an eggplant, diced it and marinaded it. I sliced up chicken and marinaded it. Eileen was off to Grand Rapids. I did the Mom book task (go get her old library books, take them back and find new ones for her). Went to church and prepared for this morning including practicing organ. Got this done just in time to grab lunch then show up at college to accompany visiting Joffrey Ballet auditions.

The chair at the dance department assured me I would be paid $50 an hour for this work. The visiting ballet dude made me sign a receipt for $80 for an hour and a half worth of work. Earlier this year Blue Lake Fine Arts camp paid me $100 for the same amount of work. But I’m happy with the $80 since last year this same person gave me an envelope with $31 in it (I just checked my records to get this amount). I complained last year but nothing was done. It reminds me of Friday morning when I braved the (very) cold and made it to the 8:30 class only to notice that around 8:30 no one was there. I emailed the teacher via my phone twice. Finally a student showed and when asked told me they had delayed the class until 9 AM. The teacher showed and didn’t say anything about the late start. I billed for the extra half hour.

All of this is sort of petty, but it bothers me more in the concept than the actually pennies. It gives me the self image of someone who is thin skinned and overly worried about their own treatment. Bah.

Anyway after the Ballet auditions, the rest of the day was pretty smooth sailing. I came home and began working on the two dishes I wanted to take to supper. I also fixed white rice to go under the chicken and brown rice to go under the curry. I thought the food turned out pretty well.

After supper at the Edgingtons we trooped off to see a long evening of college dancing. There were nine pieces on the program. By the end of the evening I was so tired I just longed for it to be over. The dancing was good. But this old fart was tired.

I think there’s something to the comments of my fam that I am not taking enough time off. I just don’t see much of it coming up with the beginning of Lent at work and other projects I have my hand in. I need to think about doing some gentle unentanglement, but don’t see just how to proceed.

I have pointed out to Eileen that according to Friedman theory it would help things if she would take back some of her anxiety. According to Friedman anxiety in a relationship or system simply floats around so that when one person, say who has happily and successfully lowered their own anxiety by retiring and buying a loom and weaving another person say an old half ass musician ends up taking on the extra anxiety and stress.

For some reason Eileen just laughs  when I say this.

friday report

 

Eileen is walking on air these days. She is loving weaving. It’s a pleasure to see her so happy. She tells me that I do not take a day off. Ever. It’s helpful to have her around to make these kinds of observations. Yesterday was supposed to be a day off for me, but I still managed to do a ton of stuff. At the end of day I was tired but relaxed. I know that most days I will want to practice and exercise, but I will be giving Eileen’s comment some more thought.

451

My play version of Fahrenheit 451 by Bradbury came in the mail yesterday. A cursory examination reveals so far that it was the basis for the play Eileen and I saw recently. Still processing this. I am coming to think that it’s not that great a play. It’s a much better book than play. But what I’m curious about is Bradbury’s evolving ideas from 1952 when he wrote the novel to 1976 when he wrote the play. Also how these ideas play when I think of the reading and studying I have done about the impact of tech on our culture.

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I scanned a couple pages of my program from the recent Latry concert for your dining and dancing pleasure.

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It really was a surprisingly enjoyable concert for me. Rhonda asked me to write it up for the local AGO newsletter.

The Holland AGO chapter was well represented at a recent concert by Olivier Latry, titular organist of Notre Dame Cathedral in Paris. Several of our members drove down to South Bend to hear Latry perform an unusual program on Paul Fritts’ Opus 24 organ (35 stops) at the Debartolo Performing Arts Center.

Latry carefully chose and juxtaposed pieces to create a unique sense of a concert with an overall aesthetic intention beginning with György Ligeti’s “Harmonies.” This ethereal piece is reminiscent in sound and texture to the choral piece, “Atmospheres,” Ligeti’s famous contribution to soundtrack of the movie, “2001: A Space Odyssey.”

Especially intriguing was the interleaving of four Orgelbüchlein chorales with Preludes by the contemporary composer, Jean-Pierre Leguay. Latry obviously had in mind pitch and melodic connections between Bach’s pieces and Leguay’s.

Other pieces on the program included “Pièce d’orgue” BWV 572 by Bach, Evocation I by Thierry Escaich, Fantaisie sur “Von Gott will ich nicht lassen” by Bert Matter and a Passacaille by Georg Muffat.

At the end of the hour, Latry was handed a theme to improvise on which turned out to be the Notre Dame Fight Song. He gamely came up with a brilliant and humorous take on it.

This saves me from blathering here about it only to add that all of the pieces in the program seemed to connect  to each other in context. Very cool idea.

classicalrevolution

I continue to struggle with Bortslap’s ideas in his book, The Classical  Revolution. Last night I was talking to Eileen and I told her that I continue to feel eccentric in my approach to music. It’s like Bortslap’s three categorizations of music and musicians all are moving away from me. The three categories are dang “sound artists” (probably the closest one to me), strictly trained classical musicians who prefer historical music and his nemesis, those musicians who think they are making music with their avant-garde stuff but are really not. This last category is really lumped into “sonic” or “sound” art with all popular musics, jazz and other supposedly non-academic music.

When I factor in the way I experience people’s reaction (or non-reaction) to so much of the music I myself have played over the years, I see myself as blissfully isolated in my passion and not exactly fitting in anywhere.

But as Eileen says I’ve always been a bit of a non-conformist.